art vs law

why I chose law?

I am a rule follower. I have always been a rule follower. It makes the world easier. A world that does not make a lot of sense.

Or at least it did, until I tried to fit me in that world and how it actually functions and how limited its vision is.

It contained a world of possibility and it provides for a much needed base for a society to function, but it did not see the possibility of me.

It allowed me to make the world more functional for others, it did not allow me to make the world more functional for me.

why I choose art?

I take an idea. I give it a name. I call it a technique. I take this term. I decide what fits inside and what does not. I have a new idea, I determine if this idea fits within those rules, and if it does not, I decide whether or not I will change those rules.

Instead of being made a judge, I make myself a judge.

My world may be small, but it is one in which I fit, one which makes sense, one that is logical, one that explores, one that does not assume, one that does not have to agree with illogical arguments because to disagree is somehow hate filled.

The consequence

Now there is a loss in all this. There is a loss to me and there is a loss to the law. Because law should be for everyone and should consider everyone. Because a law system where the professionals who work in it do not have the lived experience of all cannot make rules and procedures that meet the needs of and provide access to all.

For now I keep to my world, the world of my creation. And the world with my rules. The world through which the I can fully communicate. And I pass when I must. And I hope that someday that communication, which is made in my world, with my rules and which allows me to function, translates to that other bigger world.

That my choice becomes not art or law. But law informed by my world too. Law that sees the possibility of me.