the next lane over

The problem with him

And the horrible things he says

It's in the next lane over to what has been going unsaid

Casually suggesting ethical cleansing for a new real estate development

I feel like I'm watching every movie fighting gentrification and pushing the people out of their neighborhood but supersized

I'm wondering if that is why so many bombs flew

I was shocked because as much as I imagine I did not predict this option

I am horrified

And at the back of my mind I remember how tired I am of the fight for more than a half century, of what pain all the frozen conflicts in the world are, that I wonder if bad endings are better than no endings, that no one knows how to govern this land the way it is, that outside of those for who it is home, the rest of the world just uses it to argue a point, guilt an opponent and rally around

Is that why he has taken the wins he has, because it pulls from the unacceptable reasonable, it parallels the realities of the actual, it has just moved them to this horrifying logic

Wealth by destruction

Is that it pulled from the logic of what is being done on the small scale, while vilified but accepted and rewarded and applauded, and scaled it up?

I wake up every morning, horrifying, asking how we got here, how to fight this thing, wondering if it is all just being oversold, that you still have to enjoy the good things in life and not let it get you down, that my mind can not handle the horrors of us moving backwards into history, and concerned is it going to come down to the US military having to say no to something

I'm finding no conclusion