tomorrow was a bad day

I was thinking to myself walking over University Bridge, “tomorrow was a bad day.” And that didn't make sense, but it kinda did.

So this piece is mostly about anxiety, about already living through a thing before it happens and how foolish it is to experience the misery of: what might happen, what likely won't happen and if it does happen, one will have to go through again.

So mostly it is a piece about living in the now instead of experiencing the negatives of the future.

But there is another side to it too. That is forethought. Because the reason my brain does all that, goes through it before hand, comes up with scripts to deal with a situation, experiences it before it happens, is because it can make it a whole lot easier when it does. And because some things, we do need to prepare.

But mostly, it is about how foolish it can be to live in what has not yet happen and get stuck there and miss all the now.

There is a little irony too, as this is one of those where I had the idea and wanted to make it quickly, like in a couple day. And it took about 10. So clearly some optimism for the future in what appears like a whole lot of pessimism.