Hidden in the Binary
These are the things that run through my mind that I am not supposed to say, or feel safe to say. They are things I have felt the need to hide due to the simplified ways individuals and the world are seen and evaluated.
And the resulting damage from not naturally fitting within these.
So here these things I think about are hidden (or not so hidden) in the binary (and the not so binary) of my work.
And the internal is made external, which to me, is what art is.
it seems less about the claim less about what claims we should deem relevant it seems more about the willingness to claim
If the claim is truth, good isn't enough
Why, then, it it not okay to mitigate the damage?
At what point am I allowed to be damaged?
if I took the act If I created the harm You would try to understand If I do not respond If I remain the bystander You assume what I am
How can the purpose be to find purpose?
i dream of acknowledgement and accuracy and actuality
Why should I train myself to be less?
am I crazy or are they all just blind?
the need to be relevant
I will not treat you better because you act badly
it's the problem of a diagnosis in the bipolar realm you can't trust you're not supposed to trust happy
...because man said god said
to think is to hate?
individual imperialism
why do you expect me to fight for you to have more than me
it is not shame, it is risk, that shuts me up
why are we so destructive?
because there is really nothing more depressing, devasting, derailing than the inaccuracy winning
when has truth ever mattered?
maybe all there is is beauty
I do not matter I am not relevant I will no longer be reasonable I am tired of what I am not being enough and I can't take the damage of pretending anymore
de jure justice de facto delegitimizing
what if I had never been told I was mentally ill? what if I hadn't been told the thing I couldn't trust was me?
what happens when i take the pill they gave me to heal i unravel what did not need to be unraveled
does anyone ever find truth?
crazy or mad or unreasoned
i am tired of assholes winning
anyone know what the beeping noise is?